Cry Baby Cry

Just what I needed. My school was closed today, as I said yesterday and my best friend had promised me to come to our new house. We met downtown, went to Cook Shop to eat something and bought some new year presents for our friends. I got my best friend 2 fish. One of her friend already got her one but he was too lonely in his tiny aquarium all by his own. So my gift was actually for Tezcan(that's what she calls her tiny little companion).

After we were done with the new-years shopping, we went to the theatre to see a new-release Turkish movie. It was called Başka Dilde Aşk. I'm not sure what the English version of the title is but it means love in another language. It was about a woman and a deaf man's love and how hard they survived their relationship. Everyone around them, their friends and both of their families were against their relationship however they were altruistic enough to be ignorant about their flaws. It was a great love story, just like the other movie we watched today.

After we got home we prepared ourselves a great meal. Actually my best friend did the most work, she is going to be a cook in the future. After our humble meal we watched Jeux D'enfants. It was truly comic and the second best love story I ever saw. (The Notebook is the best I've ever seen) I bursted into tears when I thought Julien was dead and I didn't stop until the very end. Emira was watching the movie for the 20th time (at least) so all she did was to laugh at me and hit me with pillows 'til I stopped crying.

Both of us were in the mood of crying and the emotional scenes of Jeux D'enfants wasn't enough for us so we decided to watch Babam ve Oğlum. It was a tragic movie about the broken relationships of a family. I strongly recommend you to watch it. Click here for the synopsis. We cried the last 20-25 minutes of the movie. Our desperate situation was quite ridiculous. Emira fell asleep during the movie. When I started crying out loud, my strange sniffing woke her up and she started crying as she woke up. Both of us were making strange noises and crying so bad that you would think that someone had died. Lucky was sleeping and when he heard us he ran toward us and started barking barking and barking. I thought he would never stop. Think of it this way: The movie is still not finished and the volume is at maximum, there you have the actor screaming "My boy!", two funny looking teenage girls crying their eyes out plus a crazy, wild, cat-size dog barking and trying to jump on them. If you ever see a situation like this, run away, quick.

Now, all the crying has stopped and were just laughing about what just happened. Crying was made me feel good, like a relief. I wasn't sad or anything but it just felt good. Our eyes has shrunk due to the heavy crying session and we are in the desperate need of sleep. I wonder, after watching 3 movies what will we dream about tonight? Arrivederci!

Merry Christmas

I'd like to start with saying "Happy holidays everyone!"

It was an above-average week. Monday was quite ordinary just like Tuesday. I turned in my math homework which was quite unusual for me. I borrowed my friends' cameras and took some pictures while the rest of the class was at the dark room. Personally they were not as good as the ones I took the previous week. Like my teacher says, I have to widen the aperture. On Wednesday there was a new year party at school. It wasn't bad but I can't say that it was truly entertaining. I didn't dance all the time but I made the most out of the time I danced. Wednesday was the most extraordinaire day. Today was just as monotonous as Monday and Tuesday and I'm truly glad there is no school tomorrow.

Tonight I've got absolutely nothing to do. I'll probably read Sense and Sensibility and listen some music. I wish it was raining, then I would be too busy watching the droplets...

It was a perfect perfect weekend; I didn't have any homework, it was rainy and cold, I ate some delicious food, Lucky was with me all the time (in fact that 4-legged beast is sitting on my lap and chewing his toy right now), I watched Becoming Jane, Pride and Prejudice and Avatar, basically I chilled all weekend long.

Saturday was rainy and cold, the perfect conditions for a chilling-mood. Today, dad, Lucky and I took a walk to Beşiktaş. The weather was unexpectedly warm. The wind was a southwester and it made the waves hit the shore rapidly. The view was amazing. I learned that after southwester winds the weather immediately becomes cold and that the southwester winds won't be wandering around Istanbul starting from tonight. I had heard from the forecast that they were expecting the weather to be really cold on Monday and Tuesday so this explains it all. (I should be a meteorologist someday.) I hope it snows! It's not that I want a snow holiday, the snow on Friday wasn't nearly enough for me.

I really don't like eating fish. I hate to feel the tiny bones in my mouth, it drives me crazy. So when I'm eating fish I comb out the bones slowly and carefully. The meal gets colder and colder, and when I'm done the fish doesn't taste good at all. Dad wanted to have fish, so I told my dad to get salmon cause I wouldn't eat any other fish. (of course not in a greedy-little-girl manner) I have no idea how dad cooked the salmon but it tasted heavenly. In addition, I discovered that Ben & Jerry's has a new flavour: Chocolate Macadamia. It is one of the best ice-cream flavours I have ever tasted. It is against my no-sugar/no-insulin-raising-thing diet but dad said that one spoon wouldn't do any harm.

I did lots of watching during the weekend. Avatar was way too long but I liked the fiction and the characters. Pride and Prejudice was much more funnier than the book. Even though I loved the book, while reading it I thought that it was not that funny, unlike the critics who commented on it. (but who is to criticize Jane Austen's work anyway?) As for Becoming Jane, I absolutely HATED the end and I felt really sorry for poor Jane. If I could end the film differently, Mr. Lefroy wouldn't marry someone he didn't love instead of Jane. After he had become a successful lawyer he would propose to Jane again. Or Jane would run away with Mr. Lefroy and they could earn money by Jane's pen. Mr. Lefroy would become successful in his profession and they would live happily ever after. If I had ended the story the would be a happy ending no matter what. I hadn't watched a sad end before. But now I understand the significance of bad endings; they are real, they show us the realities of life. I should think of it this way; If Jane's life had a happy ending she wouldn't have written the 6 indispensables of English literature.

It was a perfect weekend and I shall make it even more marvelous by reading Sense and Sensibility while listening to the raindrops gliding on my window. Arrivederci!

Future Lover

When there's snow on the ground (365/271)
Originally uploaded by JenniPenni

Sleep=Perfection. Last night I wen to to bed at 11 p.m. and it was 1.25 p.m. when I woke up. Apparently I skipped school today. It's half-day on Fridays and our buses leave school at 13.25. What a coinkidink! I wish I slept 14 hours everyday...

I had nothing to do at home so my best choices were daydreaming and reading a book. I had really missed snow and first of all I dreamt about snow. Skiing off-piste, getting lost at a skiing centre where you have never been before, coming to your hotel room after a cold skiing session and relaxing in front of the chimney, drinking hot cocoa and eating french fries with beer etc. Boy I missed skiing and winter! I have to see snow and feel the sweet chill on my cheeks. I want to stick out my tongue while it's snowing outside. Based on this thoughts I decided to live somewhere which always snows. Always, always and always snows! I want to have a cosy forest house in the middle of the woods. I can curl under the blankets with my Saint Bernard, Lucky, my family and my loved ones. I can sit by the chimney and watch the harmonious dance of the snow flakes rapidly hitting my windows. I want to hear the the daunting wind playing on my rooftop and making the snow fall on the ground. When I'm bored, I want to go outside and build the biggest snowman ever or lie on the thick snow and make snow angels. I can bake chocolate chip or ginger-flavored cookies (f.y.i. I'm good at baking) and eat them with a cold cup of milk just before bed. This is my ultimate dream, I hope it comes true someday... If it doesn't I'll definitely make it come true.

By the way I just peeked outside and guess what? It's snowing! Miraculous. If I had wished for something else, it would have gotten true. I better wish for true love. If that wish doesn't come true I'll explode in a few days or I'll be mortuus due to taedium.

p.s. my room's electrical system doesn't work and I survive with my crystal-ball-shaped red light. A sexier ambiance can't possibly exist.
mortuus: dead
taedium: boredom

Monotony

Exam session morning
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My math teacher will laugh out loud when he grades my quiz paper. The things I wrote were completely nonsense. I'll do better the next time. This time I mean it.

I decided my life is too monotonous. It's even more monotonous than the Bennett's' life. (Pride & Prejudice) I don't have any action at all. It's the same every week. Let me be clear; I want to fall in love. I want to feel that fever again, that excitement, that thrill, I want my breath to be taken away... In my opinion, being in love is an honour. Everybody doesn't get that privilege. Love i the ultimate reason to be happy, I don't understand why people who are in love suffer. I was looking forward to high school just for my falling-in-love expectation. I thought that there would be someone out there to make me feel over the moon. I still am waiting... But I shouldn't be on lookout. It should be spontaneous and I should feel it when I expect it the least. I read this saying: Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling in love, because you don't force yourself to fall, you just fall. So true but I'm way too bored because of this monotony. Maybe there is someone so close, so close that I can't even see. I shouldn't condition myself to fall in love, it's the worst thing to do. Cause if you do that, you feel like you should be thinking of someone constantly and that won't lead to love no matter what. That would turn into an obsession. Anyway, all I have to do is wait, wait and wait some more...

fragile

I'm too emotional today. I feel like I can burst into tears any second. I hate when people don't empathize when they are talking to you. They don't even think that their words might hurt you. I become quite breakable in situations like this. Even the tiniest thing can easily offend me, I blush, my eyes get heavier and heavier and I try so hard not to cry. I don't usually cry but in such cases my mood changes in a wink and I become someone completely different. You know what hurts the most? If this thing is done to you by someone you consider as a close friend. You think that they know you; but realizing they didn't care about you at all makes you want to hide your head just like a scared ostrich. I might be exaggerating but this is exactly how I feel right now. I don't like the way I feel but I can't help it. I have to get out of this mood as soon as possible. (bu the way, I said but four times)

Now, I'm all alone at the house (Lucky is here of course) cause mom's pharmacy has to be open tonight. It's nice being alone. I made myself some strange meal, it tasted peculiarly delicious. I won't say what was in it cause all of the ingredients are irrelevant. You wouldn't even dare to try it however, when they combine they make a harmonious composition.

I have a math quiz tomorrow, I studied but I have to solve a lot more questions. Am I in the mood for solving math questions? Definitely not. So after taking a warm bath I'll curl under my thick quilt and finish Pride & Prejudice. I had paused reading it but I'm nearly finished. Only forty pages left. I better get going, I want to be sleeping by 11.30 o'clock, 12 tops. Arrivederci!

Charlie Bit Me

Today I-had-fun! It was the best day of school(yet) since the beginning of high school. Especially the photography classes. We watched/listened Charlie Bit Me Remix the entire two lessons. One of my friend wasn't using his Nikon D3000, so I borrowed it to take pictures until the end of class. All of my classmates kept singing Charlie Bit Me all day long. I'm still listening Charlie Bit Me, it has become an addiction. :) I have two quizzes tomorrow, so gotta go! Arrivederci!

Here are the pics I took today, what 'cha think?