Mid-term break, day 6

I'm at my dad's right now(we made up a couple of days ago). The house has changed a lot since I last saw it. It was like a huge pile of mess stuffed in little rooms before, now it looks like a proper house. I'll be living for the next 4 days. I'll be studying most of the time, so you don't call that living.

Yesterday I woke up at 11.55 a.m., I was lost in my crazy dreams again. After breakfast I went over to my friends' place to study geography. I didn't listen geography once since the school started and I absolutely hate geography. It's not because of my teacher or anything else, I'm just not interested in the subject. I want to be a doctor when I grow up and how are maps going to help me in the future? My dad, on the other side, says that he loved geography and it is fun. Weird. While studying I realized that I have lots and lots of studying to do...

Anyway, last night I went to the cinema with mom. We saw 7 Kocalı Hürmüz(it's a new Turkish movie). It was one of the funniest movies I've ever seen. Here is the plot outline : The story takes place in the late 1800s, Istanbul, Taşkasap. Hürmüz is a widow who gets married illegally to 6 different men who have different professions. Each of her husbands visit her a different day of the week. They buy her gifts and she solves her economic problems by using their money. However Hürmüz fells in love with the doctor of the city. With her peculiar friend Safinaz's help, she makes up a fake disease and invites the doctor to her court. The doctor fells in love with her... But as her all of her husbands visit her house the same night, Hürmüz and Safinaz find themselves in a complex, funny situation. Hürmüz's ambition is to make a marriage based on love, so she has to get rid of all of her husbands before the doctor finds it out. With their superior intelligence and cunning skills Hürmüz and Safinaz smoothly get out of this situation. After all Hürmüz overcomes the obstacles, the doctor and Hürmüz gets married....

Today I met my friend Tulya downtown and we went to a special cafe together. The special thing about this cafe is: it is a fortune-telling cafe. I mean, of course "the cafe" doesn't tell your fortune, the fortune tellers that work there tell your fortune. We don't believe in what the fortune-tellers say, it's just for fun. Fala inanma falsız kalma anacım. Anyway, my friends Emira and Yonca was there as well. The fortune teller told me that: My feeling will be jumbled in a while because there will be lots of love-talk going on around me. I won't have a serious relationship until august but I'll be seeing people. (As I said before I don't believe in fortune-telling. Nobody knows or decides your fortune but yourself. This was just for fun.) That was the only thing she said about love, the rest was about my academic future. She said that I'll be living apart with my mom or dad, I'll be living in a foreign country. This year will be a good year for me, but I should study more. She said that I don't care about school enough. She said that the age 17 will be an important year for me. The things she said was pretty nice and at the end she said : "Why did you come here, everything goes well in your life and everything will be nice in the future." ( I better believe in that.)

So that was basically what I did the past 2 days. Now I'm going to read a book or watch Grey's Anatomy. Arrivederci!

Hürmüz = Hormus

The story of 7 Kocalı Hürmüz is told by Aesop.

Mid-term break, day 4

Today was a nice day; not too tiring, not too boring. Yesterday it was SO boring I almost integrated with my bed. I love those kind of days, when you do absolutely nothing but chill. You don't have to do your bed or get out of your PJ's. Yesterday, everything went smooth for the first 10 hours however after that I reached the ultimate boredom level and I exploded, I wanted to scream for help as if I was drowning in the lake of lost souls. This may be too pessimistic but it's true. Last night I had a weird weird dream. Me, my parents and another friend of mine and his family had rent "the Black Pearl". The ship was a total wreck but there were 2 latest-model fishing boats tied up to it as rescue boats. All of us were having a great time. Our dads were racing with the fishing-boats and I was on board on the same boat with my dad. During the race, dad made a sudden turn with the boat that made me fell off board. The flow dragged me kilometers away and it was night when they found me. My friend's mum punished me because I fell from the boat. My punishment was feeding the crabs but I was supposed to be in the aquarium while I fed them. After my tussle with the crabs I broke the aquarium and got out. I started walking on the deck and went to the workers corridor. The corridor was dark. I saw the silhouettes of 2 people. One of them was in the secret passages of the ship and the other was talking to him through the chained little window of the passage. The boy in the passage was saying get out of here in their tongue. I kept asking why but they didn't understand me. Then the girl started running away. I turned my head and saw the strange fish/crab/man creature walking towards me. I tried to get in the passage but I couldn't. Just as the creature reached me I started running to the stairs as fast as I could. As I started climbing up the stairs, I saw some inspectors with magic wands were taking strange, brain-washed men down the stairs. I reached the top floor and found 2 inspectors there. They were trying to find the last 2 people who were behind this. (If you are confused, you are not alone. It is one of the strangest dreams I ever had and believe me I have bizarre dreams all the time.) The inspectors asked for my help and I said "Yes". They gave me a wand too. They told me that they were going to find the criminals by using the "echo" method. I was too afraid to ask questions so I didn't ask what the echo method was. They screamed at the left side of the corridor and observed how long the echo lasted. It lasted quite longer compared to the right side so they decided to go to the right side. We went in to the first room on the right. We found 2 men. They were twins, one of them just had a upper torso but he was still alive. As I tried to lead the inspectors to the stairs a man blocked our way. He was the triplet of the twins we found(it turns out they weren't twins after all). I managed to escape and ran down the stairs. I faced the crew of the ship. They were all dressed as if they were part of a circus. I immediately adapted to the concept ans started singing. People who listened to me offered me to join the circus and I said "Yes". Then the ship docked and when the gates opened we were at Istiklal Caddesi. My friends were there to meet me. They told me to look more energetic and lively. I did what they told me ans started doing cha-cha and samba. Then all of a sudden we were taken to St. Pulchérie(a French high school). The teachers told us that we were St. Pulchérie students from now on. First, we went to the physics class and had a pop quiz. There were 10 questions and I only answered 2. I started looking around in suspicion, fear and tension. Then I woke up screaming "I want my old school!". Strange dream right? I'm still under its spell. As for today: I went to the gym and I worked a bit more to get rid of the donuts I ate 2 days ago. After that I went to my friends surprise party. Even though I was 1.5 hours late because of the traffic, I had lots of fun. While I was at he party mom had a little tooth operation. She is fine now but her tooth aches and her face is all swollen. She'll be fine in a couple of days. It was a nice day after all. Now I feel really sleepy and I can't keep my eyelids open. Bye for now, arrivederci and I hope you dream dream and dream all night long...

Mid-term break, day 2

~Lucid Dreaming~
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After waking up from my 13-hours sleep this morning, I realized that sleeping is an art. It is the ultimate zone that anyone uses their creativity. I have the weirdest dreams. Once I was in a world of trinket and I was being chased by a baker called Sofort Hrothgar. Sofort means immediately in German and I learned that Hrothgar is a character from the movie Beowulf. I've never watched Beowulf before and I didn't even know what sofort meant then. Last night me and my dad was swimming in ponds of frozen honey at our old summer house. It was more like a nightmare actually, me, my dad, my great grandma and my great grandpa(unfortunately he is dead) was being chased by people, bad people that I didn't know. And there was this boy who seemed familiar, but yet I didn't know him. He was always with me, like a stalker that protected me from evil. I couldn't' recognize the face because he never got that near. He was following us with a motorbike wherever we went. I actually think I know him... But I'll never tell you who he is. :) ("that's a secret I'll never tell"- gossip girl) Apart from my weird but mesmerizing nightmare I watched Grey's Anatomy (I'm still at season 2). And later on, we went window-shopping with mom. Even though we didn't buy anything (perhaps that's why it's called window shopping) we had lots of fun. That was basically what I did today. Bye for today, I hope you have enchanting dreams tonight...

Mid-term break, day 1

It was a quiet day today. My mom and I went to the tailor first thing in the morning. My school skirt was too loose for me, it had been bugging me ever since school stared and we didn't have the time to get it fixed. After the tailor we went to the coiffeur to get my nails done. (so girly :) ) Then I got back home, I had nothing else to do so I started searching for cake recipes in different blogs. I found some delicious snickerdoodle and cinnamon-carrot cake recipes, mmm mouth-watering... That was when I realized that I hadn't eaten a thing since breakfast (it had been six hours since breakfast). So I went to the kitchen and made myself a delicious toast and I enjoyed eating it while I drank some ayran*. When my meal was finished I sat in front of my laptop and started surfing the Internet. Apparently I wasn't full enough and the donut pictures that wrapped my screen made me go wild. I couldn't make some myself at the time so I called my mum right away and told her to buy some donuts on her way home. She was a bit hesitant at first (cause sugar is forbidden to me because I'm inclined to have diabetes) but with my ability to convince I convinced her to get some cinnamon donuts. (I'm such a mischievous child) Now I'm waiting for mom to come home (I'm waiting for the donuts actually) with Lucky peacefully sleeping on my lap... The bell's ringing, my donuts are here! Arrivederci!

*Ayran is a special Turkish drink. It is a heterogeneous mixture and it is a suspension. (I love chemistry, sincerely) It is made my mixing yogurt and water together. If the proportion of yogurt to water is more it tastes better. You may add some salt to the mixture if it doesn't taste good. Make sure to mix it as much as you can or the yogurt precipitates and sinks to the bottom. (again, I love chemistry) ;)

bittersweet

"THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY! I feel like I've been waiting for Friday since ages. I needed a break for a loong long time and now I have 11 days of vacation ahead of me... I'm the happiest person on the planet right now. This break is going to be great! I can do whatever I want whenever I want." was what I was going to say. But now I'm in the desperate need of chocolate and sweets because of my fight with dad. I can't explain why we had a fight but the things he said reduced me to tears. I'm really mad now and even though dad apologized for a bazillion times, I'm determined to not talk to my dad until he makes a proper, sincere apology. Now all I want is to eat any kind of chocolate or cinnamon-walnut-apple-raisin cake (mom makes it and it is de-li-cious). Or else, I'll go nuts in a while...

BO-ring School Talk

We had a math exam today. I'll probably fail it. I knew this would happen, so I'm not as devastated as my friends who also had a bad exam. Most of us had a quite bad exam actually. I talked to my teacher before the exam and he said that I should solve more examples. He's quite right though, I really don't like solving extra questions but studying over night doesn't help either. I cried cried and cried last night just because of this. Yesterday I was really exhausted when I got back from school and I just fell asleep on my bed. When I woke up it was 9.30 p.m. and I had to finish my homeworks and study for 2 exams. Torture. I couldn't understand anything because a part of me was still sleeping. Instead of studying, went to bed but I didn't sleep a wink until 3.26 a.m. ( I was checking the clock) I honestly hate the school's program. It is really hard to keep up with. Today I was thinking to myself, on my way back home, that I didn't have any homework to do today but I was completely wrong. I have to prepare a PowerPoint presentation for tomorrow and complete my journal entries. How boring is that? I need a break. Thank God we have a 1-week mid-term break next week. But after that we have an exam week so I think the teachers want us to study our asses off for the upcoming exams. They will never give us a break... Never ever ever. I wish it was raining now. I wish I was under my cozy blankets, drinking hot cocoa and watching the harmonious dance of the raindrops hitting my window. I wish I could have quality time with myself as much as I wanted. There are so many things I want to do, but so less time... I'm just so tired that I can't restore my energy if I had slept for a month. I've been so busy the past week I dropped 1.5 kilos. That's the only positive thing about it. I've gotta do my f.ing homeworks now, unfortunately. Hope I don't fall asleep again...

photo by Trane DeVore

Dilemma

I'M ABSOLUTELY SICK OF THIS! I just hate being a teenager. You can't believe how strange I feel right now, I just can't define this peculiar feeling that I have. It's not just one feeling, it's a bazillion feelings at the same time. Right now I am: angry, sad, full of joy, happy, too tired, bored, nervous, worried, lonely, self-confident and giggly at the same time. (Don't worry I'm not drunk.) I feel so strange I may even regret the things I'll write here 10 minutes after publishing it. My mood changed more than thousands of times today. I just can't stay stable. It would've been better if I could have controlled it. I thought a person can't possibly feel more than one thing at once. Now I'm feeling neutral (thank God) but this will change in less than 5 minutes I guess. I wonder how long I will be like this. I hope this doesn't last long. On my way from school to home I was really energetic for an unknown reason but then my mood changed (again for an unknown reason) and I started feeling depressed. I haven't been able to talk to my best friend lately maybe that's why my mood changes so often. I've got SO many things to tell her but I haven't seen her for 6 weeks because of my goddamn exams and homework. I've been thinking about the things I wanted to tell her on my way, perhaps remembering the things I wanted to tell her made me so moody. I really really really HAVE to talk to her as soon as possible. Now that I said that I feel as if I'm one of the teenager girls that are always on Facebook and write on their friends' wall : we need to talk, bad things happened. See, I told you I would regret what I wrote. It even came sooner than I thought. Knowing myself is good though, knowing what I will say or think after doing something... God it's happening again, I better go before I want to erase this post. I feel like Hulk. I feel like I'm mutating into a cheesy little teenager. O-kay I'm talking too much again, babbling again. Better go before I transform into an ergen again. Arrivederci!